6 posts tagged “music”
What's your musical horoscope? (Put your player on shuffle and write down the first 10 songs that come up.)
"Better Off Alone"-Smile Empty Soul
"I'm Not Okay"- My Chemical Romance
"Evil Angel"-Breaking Benjamin
"Scream"-Avenged Sevenfold
"Masters of War"-Bob Dylan
"Gone Forever"-Three Days Grace
"Untouched and Intact"-The Honorary Title
"Back to California"-The Wallflowers
"When You're Evil"-Voltaire
"While My Guitar Gently Weeps"-The Beatles
.....All this proves is that I have a weird taste in music. At least I hope so. Kinda funny that the first two songs came up together. Hopefully that isn't some sort of prediction of how my day will go....
Audio: Share a song you just can't stand.
WHY WON'T IT DIE!!!!!
(Assumes fetal position)
I'm not sure what to write about, but I feel like writing something. Which usually leads to me writing some huge spiel about some random crap that no one particularly cares about. (Oh well. Too damn bad.) This week is creeping by it seems. It totally should be next Tuesday by now. Lets see, what have I done today......I went to work. I saw Lauren and went to dinner at Ruby Tuesday's :), I studied for my Health Final. Speaking of Health....I think Wake should hire Kearns to teach us. I could totally see Kearns rolling in some huge TV, popping in a Lifetime movie, and walking out again. *Would probably learn more* Umm yeah....I have to write a protest song for my seminar Class! AUGHAMUFFIN! *just invented that word last night* see, that poses a problem for me. It took me forever and a half to write that story for English. Granted, it turned out well, I have TWO WEEKS to write a SONG (this includes music). The extent to which I am boned can not be properly expressed in this medium.
Oh well....I gotta o do laundry...and think of a protest song...BLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAGH!
Well, I SHOULD be doing a 5 page paper that I have due soon. Well, I have two due soon, but w/e. I decided my time would be much better spent updating my Vox at 2 AM. WooT!! (I have 2 pages done) So yeah, not sure why I'm bothering though. Nothing really to report. Other than I found out that I probbaly won't get my pay check until October 9th. Freaking Wake Forest. I NEED that money. My account balance is $0.00 right now. Seriously. (Curse you Wachovia! Taking all my monies for my mom's mistake! I needed that 16 bucks!) Oh well. I've been working all day pretty much. It sucks. Hard. Thats college I guess, Its my own fault for putting it off though i suppose. And going to carnival games last night (Saturday Night). It was fun and I got to own at some Texas Hold-Em. Any respectable college student has to learn how to gamble, right? Yes. Yes I am. Wow that sounds really cocky. But whatever. I've been listening to Smile Empty Soul/They Might Be Giants all day. Plus Voltaire, but not the usual Voltaire songs I normally listen to. Theres something very calming about listening to violin music, even if its mixed with other music. If you have the chance, listen to Dunce, and Feathery Wings from the Almost Human album. They aren't bad. well, i suppose i should sleep. I have lab tomorrow. which sucks.
(I've also been listening to the Beatles, if the title doesn't give that away. You have no idea how hard it is not to break into random song when sitting here listening to music. Last year I did it all the time. I'd rather not scare everyone on my hall though. Not yet. After Christmas though, they better be ready to deal with one weird guy, because thee is no since in trying to hold it all in past that.)
Well, I'm sitting here on my laptop, done with a good bit of Chemistry and reading for history and I'm listening to the music I answered the QotD with. I've been thinking a lot about music lately. I mean, why is it that when I focus better when I'm listening to dark pissed off music...(I apologize but for some reason this POS loaner laptop won't type question marks) I mean, it makes sense that if you're feeling pissed off, you listen to dark and pissed off music to vindicate your mood. Maybe doing my homework just makes me angry...Or maybe I just like the music. But most people like music they associate with. I'm not generally a dark and angry person. Then why on earth am I listening to Three Days Grace and jamming like crazy.. Perhaps its repressed anger that I just don't want to deal with..Or I'm just slowly going insane in this place. I don't know lol. Maybe I'm just emo enough to enjoy being pissed off at the world because it makes me feel special and unappreciated or something. Whatever it is, I'm enjoying it immensely.
Anyways....What the hell is my problem lately....(Until now I never knew how much i used question marks) I've been getting frustrated with people, not that most of them would know it, and I feel so pulled in every direction. I really shouldn't though.. I mean, my college work is getting done, I'm still hanging out with people here, I'm going home atleast once a week, I see Lauren...(well, no amount would ever be ENOUGH, but I do see her...) That sounds like a lot, but I should be used to doing that much and more. I have free time usually. I shouldn't feel like this. I don't even know how to describe what it is. Its just this gut feeling that something terrible is slowly creeping toward me. Like my system of life is about to reach its limit and just burst. I'm not juggling anymore than normal, but I just feel like I'm barreling out of control.....And then there's the other part of it. I don't seem to be effected by it. Sure, I feel a little down now and then, but i get over it quickly. Perhaps its just my mechanical nature that makes me apathetic to whatever it is, along with my own doubt that its even anything at all. I don't know. Why am I even writing this garbage...Its 1:30 AM. I could sleep. I guess I just had this sudden urge to write something. Perhaps its purer that way, less of my own thoughts clouding it. Though I'm sure this has been far from convoluted.....Back to music and internet I guess.
The time is 3:18 AM. I find myself unable to sleep. I feel bad for not calling Lauren back earlier because i've been enslaved by my family. The title of this post is merely a reflection of lack of sleep and my weird mood which I am entirely unable to explain.
I suppose its just drawn from my sentimental nature and how I was thinking earlier about how every second of every day is another second which a million other things have gone on that meant nothing to you. There are billions of existences in this world, and I'm only one of them. Perhaps I'm ust curious as to what omnipotence would be like. The ability to see every thing in the world at once; to watch every little spasm in the chain of life effect something miles away, like a frog eating a fl and causing the extincton of a genetic trait that would have led to the eventual birth of giant insects and the death of mankind. Ok, that seems random, but it was just passing through my mind and I decided to write it. But I mean, things like hat have to happen every day. There is just an infinite amount of things that change in a single second, and we are all oblivious to 99.99999% of it. Its a weird feeling to me.
How this relates at all to dreams and reality....thats up to someone else to figure out. I don't need to justify my logic, which is good because I couldn't if I tried.
"The sun is a mass of incandescent gas, a gigantic nuclear furnace. Where hydrogen is turned into helium at a temperature of bilions of degrees."
-They Might Be Giants
Once again, no relevence. So don't try.
Oh yeah. I had a yard sale. I ripped some guy off on the basis of clever phrasing (I told him the Xbox worked the last time I played it, which is a perfectly true statement if not a tad misleading.) Ifelt a little guilty, but not too much. He can fix it if he really wants to, cheaper than he could buy it new. Lauren and samia made lemonade and failed to give it away for fee. Now my bladder is weak and on the verge of dying. But the lemonade is delicious. And its almost 4 and I get up in 6 hours so g'nite.
